This is Aja. I write fanfic. At times I rant about books and politics and make people watch things, but mostly I just write fanfic and blither.

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( While you're here, why not decorate the cafe? )

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So I decided to keep a running list of all the books I've read this year. But I think it's a heck of a lot easier in the long run to just keep one post and add to it rather than try to write individual reviews for things. Longer reviews are linked where they're available.

( Read, 2009: )

IF YOU LOVE DRACO MALFOY

IF YOU EVER LOVED DRACO MALFOY

OR IF YOU'VE EVER BEEN FORCED TO DO SOMETHING YOU WEREN'T SURE YOU COULD HANDLE

OR IF YOU'VE EVER NEEDED SOMETHING FROM THE WRONG PERSON AT THE WRONG TIME


READ THIS FIC.

loftily: CAN WE ALL HAVE A FANDOM REVIVAL PARTY?
I have been thinking about Harry+Slughorn (NOT ACTUAL SEX OK) since the movie :|

samenashi: now all i can think of is that one fic involving slughorn, and pineapple, and someone's anus

bookshop: remember marysia's fic with draco and the cucumber

loftily: I will never forget Harry and the flobberworms

samenashi: ME NEITHER. SOME THINGS CAN NEVER BE ERASED.


I DON'T EVEN CARE, H/D FANDOM REVIVAL PARTY RIGHT HERE.




( PARTY LIKE YOU'RE FELIXED )

ETA 1: oh my god 700 comments. I LOVE YOU ALL <3

THIS POST NOW HAS ANNOTATION *\o/*
amalin has a giant list of links to the many many many classic H/D fics mentioned on this post, including a bunch that are more or less currently offline. It is being continually updated.
midnight_bex has also created a public delicious account, hd_nostalgia, to keep track of the fics mentioned here! If you're interested in helping her organize and fill it up, please contact her!

COMMENTFIC!!!
bitchipixi gives us Txtmsg!H/D in detention :DDDD
blindmouse gives us hapless!kitten!animagus!harry :DDDDD
and
smellyleaf gives us the one where draco wore leather pants. :DDDDDDDD!


PARTY'S STILL ON, I CAN DO THIS ALL WEEKEND, YOU GUYS <3

Tags: 2009, amazing, attempts to rule world, draco, draco malfoy-what's your issue?, h/d, happy happy happy, hope, hp, hp canon, hp fandom, it's a circle of love, love, memes, where did all my h/d icons go

I just actually want to say how FUCKING EXCITED I AM ABOUT HARRY POTTER SIX.

HARRY. DRACO. HARRY/DRACO. TOM FELTON AND DANIEL RADCLIFFE CIRCLING EACH OTHER AND ACTING BADLY AND DELIVERING HILARIOUSLY OVER-THE-TOP MOMENTS OF SUBTEXT THAT PROBABLY SHOULD NOT BE CONFUSED WITH THE ACTUAL HOMOEROTISM IN THE BOOK BY THE SAME NAME. DUMBLEDORE. SNAPE. SDJFKLDJSDJD;KL

I NEED TO KNOW WHAT MALFOY IS DOING INSIDE YOU.

SKJFJD;DKL

YOU GUYS I SERIOUSLY CAN'T FUCKING WAIT, I LOVE YOU HARRY POTTER, I LOVE YOU H/D <33333333333333333

Is anybody living near VA Beach/Hampton Roads, or near the Washington D.C. metro area who'd want to go see David Cook in Alexandria on 7/29?


and by "want to go see" i mean "omg you would be putting up with me squealing irrationally about cookleta and trying to get you to follow david archuleta on twitter, but then you'd actually get to the concert and hopefully maybe it'd be worth it. um."

( FURTHER INCENTIVE. )

SO UM. YEAH.

i'm like, half a second away from friending like 18 people from idol fandom already. which is crazy because THIS IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE MY NEW FANDOM, I DON'T EVEN GO HERE, I'M NOT EVEN SUPPOSED TO BE HERE TODAY

and yet can 8 zillion gifs of Adam Lambert's hips and months of incessant tweeting and like SIX WEEKS OF EMAILING KARA GOING LIKE "Ssjkf/sddkLKFJASLFSDJDKLJ CONDITIONER" and 300 delicious saves really be wrong? CAN THEY?

idk idk, i've been bouncing all over fandoms recently, like, 3 months in Rahm-land and 3 months in Merlin-land and, uh, well, it's been since April. I SHOULD BE BURNING OUT. AND YET OBVIOUSLY I AM NOT READY TO LEAVE. I haven't ferreted out, eagerly devoured, and then left snarky delicious comments about every Cook/Archie fic in existence, I am certain of it! I haven't finished my ~epic neil lambert/daniel allen fic~ or my kris/katy/adam fic, or even started the dozens of silly cook/archie fluff cliche fics that i MUST WRITE. I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN ADAM ON TOUR YET. GOD.

how do i even tag this, really? CAN I REALLY CREATE AN AMERICAN IDOL TAG AND PUT IT ON MY LJ? MY SHAME. AND YET MY JOY. MY SHAME AND MY JOY IT IS ALL VERY CONFUSING.

whatever, you know what, i'm reinstating unscreened anon comments. Ask me something! tell me who you are! and, well, okay, please don't flame me, but if you're, idk, here from idol fandom and you're tripping, we can talk it out. or something. it's okay because I HAVE THIS AND THIS IS ALL I NEED ♥ *__*

what she said.

me: DAVID ARCHULETA IS EXCITED ABOUT FISH
kara: KRIS ALLEN IS EXCITED ABOUT TWIZZLERS
me: DANNEY GOKEY IS EXCITED ABOUT HIMSELF
kara: PAULA ABDUL IS EXCITED ABOUT POLE DANCING
me: SOMEWHERE IN THE WORLD ADAM LAMBERT IS EXCITED ABOUT HIS OUTFIT

( why idol fandom is the best, now with extra twitter! )

5 things i care deeply about but am too busy/distracted to have time to make a real lj post about:
1. Michael Jackson
2. Sarah Rees Brennan's The Demon's Lexicon which i WILL review at some point once i can get set down long enough because GOD *_*
3. the fact that the world has stopped writing David/Archie fiction in favor of Kris/Adam, which is totally unacceptable because HELLO, KRIS AND ADAM MAY BE PLATONICALLY IN LOVE AND ALL, BUT DAVID AND ARCHIE ARE STILL OVER HERE TALKING ABOUT HOW MUCH THEY LOVE EACH OTHER AND DOING HANDSTANDS AND MAKING GOOGLY EYES AT EACH OTHER IN INTERVIEWS, HOW CAN YOU IGNORE THIS, PLANET EARTH? DO YOU HAVE NO SOUL? IT'S A GOOD THING THIS IS NOT A REAL LJ POST OR I WOULD HAVE THINGS TO SAY. YES. OH SCREW IT WATCH THIS AND TALK TO ME WHEN YOU'RE READY TO APOLOGIZE.
4. invisible!Katy and why the fandom is missing out on the hottest OT3 that was ever hand-molded by god out of clay, scooped up, placed on a shiny silver platter, and presented to fandom with the booming words "HEAR THE WORDS OF YAHWEH AND SHIP THIS." And yet all fandom could see was their GOLDEN IDOL, namely, KRIS/ADAM WITHOUT KATY, and that is just WRONG WRONG AND MAKES ME SAD
5. Iran D:

5 fannish things I would be making crazy squee posts about right now, and/or ranty posts about right now, if i only had the time, and please sing that to the tune of "if i only had a brain" because it fits lol

1. Neil Lambert, oh my god oh my god Neil Lambert. though really this should be ALL THE LAMBERTS EVER and also ALL THE ALLENS EVER <3 you guys i love them so much.
2. DAVID ARCHULETA'S EXISTENCE, HIS TWEETS, HIS BLOGS, EVERY INTERVIEW HE'S EVER DONE, AND HOW HE IS THIS REALLY BIZARRELY HYSTERICAL FIVE YEAR OLD STUCK INTO THE BODY OF AN UNLIKELY 18-YEAR-OLD POP ICON, AND HOW THIS IS JUST THE MOST PHENOMENALLY PERPETUALLY HYSTERICAL THING I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. JUST. FUCK. WATCH THIS OK YOU GUYS JUST WATCH IT


IT'S NOT LIKE I WAS INTO BLOOD OR ANYTHING oh my god oh my god archie

3. Warnings, like, WTF FANDOM SOME THINGS SHOULD BE OBVIOUS AND ONE OF THEM IS THAT WHEN SOMEONE SAYS "THIS IS POTENTIALLY TRIGGERING" YOU GO "OH HO SHIT" AND YOU PUT IN WARNINGS. and the fact that this is apparently not obvious, and that people are acting like it somehow costs them some huge amount of personal dignity to make their fic headers longer by like half a line or something in order to spare someone else a large amount of very real trauma, just makes me wonder how the hell any of us can be proud of fandom as a community. Because the only way we'll ever make fandom a safe space is by respecting other people when they tell us what isn't safe for them, and while i'm still working through what that means on a number of fronts, WARNINGS? dude that just seems like a complete no-brainer. Slap 'em on and apologize, and next time try your best to write about potentially triggering issues with sensitivity, so that they aren't triggering. end soapbox.
4. Adam Adam Adam Adam Adam Adam Adam I have all kinds of personal thoughts about Adam and the role he occupies in pop culture that if I were to voice aloud would just make me look crazy and obsessed so I will just shut up for now BUT LATER, LIKE 5, 10, 15 YEARS FROM NOW, WHEN GLAMBERT HAS REVOLUTIONIZED POP MUSIC AS WE KNOW IT, i will be pointing to this lj entry and saying i totally told you so, the end, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ADAM.
5. MOVIE 6. DUDE I'M SO PSYCHED FOR HARRY POTTER 6, I DON'T EVEN CARE HOW MUCH OF A DORK I LOOK LIKE, I SERIOUSLY SWEAR TO GOD CAN'T WAIT, ANYBODY WANNA SEE IT WITH ME? JULY 15TH, BABY, I'M SO THERE. SO THERE. AHHH I CAN'T WAIT ILU HARRY <33333 ILU DRACO <33333333333333

THE PART WHERE I TELL YOU TO CLICK THIS LINK AND REJOICE, BY GOD

because IS IT JUST ME OR IS THIS MAYBE THE FIRST TIME IN FANNISH HISTORY THAT A POPULAR FANDOM SHIP HAS ACTUALLY AGREED WITH THE FANDOM AND SHIPPED ITSELF? LIKE, ADMITTED TO HAVING MUTUAL CRUSHES AND SAID THINGS LIKE "WE ARE KRADAM" AND "MANCRUSHES ARE IN!" OH MY GOD IS THERE NO END TO HOW HAPPY AND AMAZING AND LOVE-FILLED THEY ARE? NO THERE REALLY ISN'T. ALSO KRIS YOU ARE REALLY NOT HELPING MY ATTEMPTS NOT TO LEAVE OUT KATY WHEN I SHIP YOU. NOT WHEN YOU ARE SWINGING YOUR ARM AROUND ADAM LIKE YOU'VE WANTED TO DO IT FOR A WHILE. THANK GOD YOUR WIFE IS AMAZING, THANK GOD YOU ALL HAVE CRUSHES ON EACH OTHER, THANK GOD YOU ARE THE MOST AMAZING PEOPLE ON THE PLANET, SO AMAZING THAT EVEN IF YOU MADE OUT WITH ADAM ON CAMERA I WOULD STILL NOT STOP SHIPPING ALL OF YOU WITH EACH OTHER FOR LYFE AND GOD I LOVE YOU ALL.

I LOVE THEM

LOVE THEM ALL SO MUCH YOU DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND GUYS I SPENT ALL DAY TODAY STALKING THE INTERNETS FOR PICTURES OF DANIEL ALLEN. I LOVE HIM. I LOVE NEIL. I LOVE THEIR MOMS DID YOU KNOW THEIR MOMS BOTH HAVE THE SAME NICKNAME AND THAT THAT NICKNAME IS "YA YA" NO JOKE THEY ARE ACTUAL YA-YA SISTERS DUDE I CAN'T EVEN TAKE THIS I LOVE THEM LOVE THEM LOVE THEM AND YOU SHOULD ALL LOVE THEM TOO

*PANTS*

ok. i'm going to go home and read avatar fic now. ilu all <3 SORRY FOR THE ALL CAPS AND THE OVERLY LONG POST IT WAS NECESSARY, BY GOD, EVERY BIT OF IT WAS NECESSARY

I have to get on a redeye tomorrow morning, I have birthday presents and sheet music and clothes to pack, I have to SLEEP at some point before I get into a rental car, and somehow I have to do it all in under 5 hours.

So naturally I chose this moment to write Cook/Archuleta fic. cookleta was doing this, like, random ipod shuffle challenge, where you write a drabble to go with the first 10 songs that come up on your playlist. And I've been organizing my ipod all freaking day so i kind of just FLIPPED OUT AND WROTE CRAP, idk i have so much i should be doing instead, please stage an intervention on my behalf.

( The songs were awesome, so I don't mind so much that the drabbles were not. )


LOL yeah fjk;jfdk. whatever, cannot cope, off to tennessee. <3

@therealglambert just landed on twitter. my life may have had meaning before this moment, but it all seems so faint and far away.

You may have already seen the uproar about this on your friends lists, but if you haven't, please take a look at wook77's journal entry about KRXQ Radio's shock-jock hatespeech against transgendered children. It's both appalling, in the sheer level of vitrolic hate and advocacy of violence on display here, and inspiring in that so many advertisers have responded quickly and positively by pulling their advertisement from the show.

If you're online now, the radio station is attempting to address the controversy on its radio show right now, from 7:30 am to 10:00 am Pacific. You can stream it live right now. Warning: discussion is emotionally affecting and potentially triggering regarding issues of acceptance/discrimination. It looks like Bob & Arnie are apologizing all over the place for "ignorance." "I literally thought that name-calling was just that, name-calling."

They're going to be taking calls shortly, with a goal to "talk to callers and try to educate on these issues."

i don't think i can keep reading Idol fic anymore, you guys. It's the most problematic and enraging fandom i've ever read in. and i want to love it, because, i mean, i do, i love Adam and Kris and all the Lamberts and all the Allens, and I love David and David, and I seriously believe that Ryan and Simon are actually legit neck-deep in some kind of epically great angsty semi-closeted love affair for the ages.

but oh my god i just. i cannot cope. i can't cope with the way fandom writes off Katy Allen, how they alternately ignore her, make her into a bitch, or make Kris's marriage into a total repressed lie, all in the name of justifying Kris/Adam. Or if they like her, they make her into this completely passive figure who has no problem whatsoever with loaning her husband out to Adam in the name of allowing him to experience the great gay love of his life. Like reducing her to a magical helper for the Kradam is any better. and it just, it KILLS ME. i find it so upsetting.

and, like, the thing is that i love Kris/Adam, I love them as friends, I love them as lovers, I love them together or apart, I just LOVE THEM BOTH AND THINK THEY ARE WONDERFUL, so I want to read fic about them. But I don't want to read fic about Kris and Adam that's not also about Kris and Katy! :( I want to read fic about Kris and Adam and Katy, like, the three of them coming to terms with what they each mean to each other, and I want to read fic about all the Allens and all the Lamberts as, like, this amazing wonderful community of friends, and just, I feel like that nobody but me cares about that. So I keep trying to read Kris/Adam and then it upsets me. Like seriously, even a few of the Shalott fics make me sad, it's the worst thing ever. :( And then I rant about it on delicious, and probably just make people feel bad and harsh everyone's squee and then feel like a giant dick, because obvs if the solution is 'if you don't like it, don't read it,' and i don't like it, but I could love it! and I want to love it!, and, and, look, it's just not that simple! :( :( :( :(

And then there's freaking David/Archie, and let me tell you I think I have gotten to the point where there genuinely are no good Cook/Archuleta fics to be found in this fandom, like after you read through Shalott's and Celli's and Hoyden's (oh my god please write more :( ) and that one chick who just locked all her fic so I can't even link to it now wtf, everything turns into this GIANT CESS POOL OF SQUICK.

Like, i'm not exaggerating, every fic reads as a really creepy fantasy. Either the fantasy of older women who want to take David Archuleta's virginity, and so write him like he is in fact an extreme version of a 14-year-old virgin, or the fantasy of actual fifteen-year-old fic writers who want David Cook to take their virginity, and so write David Cook like this extreme version of a mentor/caretaker who confesses his love for Archie over and over again in this rush of sentiment, as if talking about how much he loves Archie will magically erase all the squicky age issues that most fics in this ship are replete with. A love-lorn older brother-cum-father figure who says things like "I'll take care of you, baby," while he's taking a trembling Archie's manhood.

I just. I DO NOT THINK I CAN TAKE IT ANYMORE.

and aslfjdkfd;ssdsdlkjsjdkldsj i kind of am so intrigued and fascinated and in love with the fandom that could have been. I don't want to give up on it altogether, but OH MY GOD I JUST CANNOT D-FACE ANY HARDER.

D:

____
(since a couple of you have been asking, my idol recs are here. there aren't very many. :/ The longer list of fic I've read that I didn't like enough to rec, but liked enough to leave public, is here. But there's also a lot of incoherent rage there directed at some of the glambert fics. read at your own risk.

IT'S NOT YOU, IDOL FANDOM, IT'S ME :( )

I cannot coherently articulate my love for Adam Lambert's Rolling Stone cover.

Never has my arrow on the kinsey scale veered this far to the left.

THINGS ABOUT WHICH I CANNOT COPE, CONCERNING AMERICA'S MOST POPULAR TV SHOW.


( Love means never having to stage an intervention. )


NEVER FEAR, FANDOM: SIMON COWELL APPROVES OF YOUR UNWITTING ADAM LAMBERT IDOL OBSESSION.



THANK YOU FOR JOINING US.

Poll #1410098 shut up u kno this poll is relevant to your interests
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All

AHHH FLYING ALTER BOY!

NONE OF THE ABOVE (insert your own answer):

Happy Release Day, sarahtales!



I've got mine. Got yours?

Buy the Demon's Lexicon from an IndieBound independent bookstore!
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Or pick it up from a local independent bookstore near you!


Congratulations, Maya. <3

YOU GUYS YOU GUYS YOU GUYS I CAN'T TAKE THIS I CAN'T TAKE HOW AMAZING THEY ALL ARE

KRIS ~ONCE SPONTANEOUSLY GAVE AWAY HIS $700 GUITAR ON A MISSIONS TRIP~ BECAUSE THE CHURCH'S MUSIC LEADER'S GUITAR WAS MISSING STRINGS AND BROKEN AND DAMAGED.

KATY WAS HOMECOMING QUEEN!!!! AND A MARKETING MAJOR. AND SHE'S PART OF A NON-PROFIT CALLED SIFE THAT PROMOTES GLOBAL SUSTAINABILITY THROUGH ETHICAL BUSINESS PRACTICES. !!!!!!! AND SHE'S SO LAIDBACK THAT SHE TOLD KRIS HE SHOULDN'T MENTION HE WAS MARRIED SO HE WOULDN'T LOSE THE TEENAGE GIRL VOTE. <3 <3 <3 <3

DANIEL IS A FREAKING CHEERLEADER. SKLJFLKFSD;LSDJKL WHO'S LIKE 6 FEET TALL BUT SAYS "OH MY GOSH" AND FLAILS A LOT. OH MY GOSH. AND DRAGGED HIS BROTHER ALONG WITH HIM TO AUDITION FOR AMERICAN IDOL. AND HE PLAYS GUITAR, TOO. AND HELPED KRIS WORK OUT WHAT TO SING ON THE SHOW <3 <3 <3 <3

NEIL WAS A DEMOCRATIC WASHINGTON INTERN OR AIDE OR SOMETHING. AND HE TEACHES KIDS. AND PUT OFF MOVING FROM CA TO NYC TIL AFTER THE IDOL SEASON WAS OVER SO HE COULD SUPPORT HIS BROTHER, OMG. AND HE PLAYS PIANO. AND TAUGHT ADAM "MAD WORLD." AND HELPED HIM WORK OUT WHAT TO SING. AND WRITES SNARKY CYNICAL BLOG POSTS AND SAYS THINGS TO ADAM LIKE "I SEE YOU'VE REACHED THE STAGE OF YOUR LIFE WHERE YOU POSE TOPLESS FOR MYSPACE AND DO NIGHTLY CRISCO RUBDOWNS. CONGRATULATIONS." OH, NEIL.

AND ADAM? ADAM DOES STUFF LIKE THIS.


CANNOT COPE *____*

eta:

Michelle: Now let’s talk about...your Bromance with Kris. Which has taken on a life of its own: There’s fan fiction involving you two…
Adam: Oh really?
Michelle: Did you not know about that?
Adam: (laughing) No I didn’t.
Michelle: Oh my god. Adam.
Adam: I kind of want to read it.


I think I seriously just had some kind of aneurysm from glee.