So, uh, here's a thingy about me and fic recs, because, uh, i've seen some of you milling around these parts looking for them, and I feel like alternately apologizing for spamming you all, and apologizing for getting my lowbrow fandom squee all over your nice new suit. So, the deal with me is:
I can be very critical and picky about what I read. I have a critical filter; for the most part, in fandom, I choose not to use it. I was a professional reviewer/theatre critic for about 4 years, and I mostly just chose early on to leave the criticism there, and I still try to do that.
Specifically, in Inception fandom, I seem almost TOTALLY unable to turn it on, ever, because, idk, you guys, I actually calculated the percentages before and my rec rate for this fandom is something like SEVENTY PER CENT higher than normal. YOU GUYS. SEVENTY FREAKING PER CENT.
This does not mean that I cannot snark about fics all day long, because I can and will. Don't encourage me to do it, because there are few things I love better than snarking about badly written fic, goodly written fic, or any fic in between, including and especially my own.
Which is to say, if you catch me snarking about *your* fic, on delicious or twitter or somewhere else, please know that it's NOT PERSONAL, because 6 tags further down I was weeping with love over something else you wrote, okay? Okay. <3 Seriously, snark is never personal with me. That said, I try to do it as little as possible, because I can actually feel the weight of evercourant's somber, disappointed gaze when I do. and by "disappointed gaze" I mean her shouts of "TYRANNY!"
If, in general, my critical filter were turned on for Inception fandom, then basically every other thing out of my mouth (read: on my delicious account) would be:
OH MY GOD, INCEPTION FANDOM, WHY CAN'T YOU WRITE FICS WHERE THE WOMEN AREN'T JUST HOLLOW PROPS FOR THE ARTHUR/EAMES MANLOVE, HOW HARD CAN IT BE
OH MY GOD, INCEPTION FANDOM, DO YOU NOT REALIZE HOW SKEEVY IT IS WHEN YOU MAKE EAMES INTO A RELENTLESS PURSUER WHO WEARS ARTHUR DOWN UNTIL HE'S LIKE, FINE, LET'S MAKE OUT, I mean do you not realize how you're contributing to rape culture
OH MY GOD, INCEPTION FANDOM, CAN YOU JUST STOP MARGINALIZING WOMEN AND MAKING ARIADNE INTO A NOSY AGENCY-LESS PLOT DEVICE, AND TALKING ABOUT HOW EAMES IS SO MUCH BETTER FOR ARTHUR THAN ANY *WOMAN* COULD BE DESPITE THE FACT THAT, UH, HELLO, EAMES IS FUCKING GENDERQUEER, AND ALSO EVERY TIME I SEE THE WORDS SLUT/WHORE/BIMBO/TROPHY/TRAMP USED TO DESCRIBE WOMEN IN FICS, I WANT TO JUST LEAVE A GIANT ANGRY SCOWL ALL OVER YOUR COMMENTS PAGE, BECAUSE EVEN IN THE BEST FICS THIS HAPPENS ALL THE TIME AND IT MAKES ME WANT TO CRY, fandom, stop doing this to yourselves, stop doing this to me, stop doing this to girl!Eames & girl!Arthur, and for that matter
OH MY GOD, INCEPTION FANDOM, GIRL!ARTHUR DOES NOT NEED A STRONG MAN TO PROTECT HER, JESUS CHRIST.
but, like I said, my critical filter for this fandom is way, way, way off, like. Off all the way through the floor and into the basement, lying with the tattered remains of my dignity. (Also it would be totally hypocritical of me to take potshots at a fandom for which I have to date written fics which have featured mostly men, slash, and copious amounts of drunken makeout sessions. My D-faces, let me show you them.)
Which is why there are over 600 public "Inception" links saved on my delicious account. I am not going to remotely tell you that they are all quality recs, and as you will quickly see they are not remotely organized. But I will tell you that I love all of them, I LOVE THIS FANDOM, I'm so in love with this fandom despite all the ranting above, and I'm really just kind of pleased and embarrassed and happy that people have been finding my INSANE RAVING ABOUT ALL THE FICS remotely useful, ahaha.
If anyone wants to know what my all-time absolute hands-down favorite Inception recs are, instead of wading through 600 disorganized rants, most of which end in some variation of "I CAN'T TAKE YOUR ANGST, INCEPTION FANDOM, I BLAME CATHY," most of them are currently listed on my user profile.
So last week, weatherfront was like, "but Aja, if you're having to be reconvinced that Arthur/Eames can work with each and every new fic, doesn't that kind of mean you.... don't believe in them?" at me, and I thought about that a lot, and I wanted to say that no, it just meant that I was waiting for the right fic to come along that would convince me once and for all.
And there have been a bunch that have coalesced into a kind of system of affirmation, okay. A BUNCH. I WILL LIST THEM IF YOU WANT. YOU PROBABLY WROTE ONE OF THEM. YES, YOU, PERSON READING THIS. But the two above feel a little special, and here's why: I feel like the first fic linked just wrings my heart into pieces and tests my faith and stretches it out on a high wire until I'm dizzy with uncertainty and the *need* to believe in them; and then the second rewards my belief until I'm like, frothing for more with some kind of Pavlovian intensity that I can't even talk about because I'm TOO BUSY PRESSING THE BUTTON OVER AND OVER, and by "pressing the button" i mean "rereading, oh my god."
Just. Love. I love this fandom, you guys! And I HAVEN'T EVEN BEGUN TO TALK ABOUT HOW TOM HARDY IS AMAZING AND HOW EVERY TIME I SEE HIM I SPEND THE NEXT HALF HOUR RANTING TO SOMEONE ABOUT HOW I DON'T ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND HOW HE'S A REAL HUMAN BEING. BASICALLY, TOM HARDY IS INCEPTION FANDOM. JUST. WHAT. HOW. WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE. HOW ARE YOU SO SEXY. HOW DO YOU EVEN EXIST. I. WHAT.
In other news, I seriously think that My Little Inception Arthur/Eames is THE MOST CANONICAL DEPICTION OF THEM EVER, the end. <3
(seriously, no, *seriously.* Arthur's raised forehoof of disdain just gets me in the gut each and every time. It's okay, Arthur. You can frolic with Eames. Just this once.)